Once again...

life and making mistakes go hand in hand for me. Im used to it. Im used to being hurt and when im not i run for it i want it to make me feel comfortable. but every time i realize that even though i make mistakes even if no one could ever love me again i know that God will always love me. I am blessed with my daughter because he loves me. I am trying so hard to break my habits. to teach my baby girl its ok to have a happy life   and feel comfortable without having to have something bad happen. Im just tired. tired of feeling this way and living this way. I know its all in my hands to take the first step and let God in completely but for some reason i hesitate. its not comfortable even though ive had him in my life since the beginning. its always been halfway. so once again as i say every so often its time for a fresh start. a new beginning. God willing this time will be different. i can get the freedom from my past that i need so that i can conquer the future and bring nothing but happiness and hope and love to my daughter. 

Oh God of second chances and new beginnings here i come again. 

its been a long day but im glad im able to break my writers block and write. let it all out. 

Marisa